Assalamualaikum ...Hi you all, this time I update the blog with english language because I dont want to show how sad I am now to him. First of all remember that I ever shahir clause post before this update? I had a few weeks to live without a man suddenly reminded of him tonight. Ouhh god only knows how much I miss him now :'(Since we were break, we nevercontact until he returned segamat to answer SPM paper. I was quite shocked when suddenly my phone screen printed name shahir <3 see? I never change the names in my contact since we break.You call me and say that you missed me very much in my heart # just hope that you sincerely say that. Day when you did not call me, I think that you may be happy with Someone else. when I ask you is have other person or not, you just said no and I'm thankful that you do not have other person. The days I always smile because you're there make me laugh every day. but now you're gone again, missing somewhere . My God what him is doing now? I missed him very much now, I'm not strong without him :'( My love, feelings, jealousy, still happy like before and ever change. Sometimes I thought do we get back like before? You break my heart again will you? single life I do not deny that it was fun but the heart remains empty without you, every day I will think of you and wait for a call from you, but ..... it's all luck :( if possible, I shouted, I want shouted as loudly that I missed you very much dear. As long as I'm strong, I'll wait for you, I want one day we will undergo our happy days with your jokes. Remember you and want to buy a scooter for me when we got married? you said you wanted to wear a myvi go to work and I will wait you come home from work and prepare delicious food for you :') I was very happy that night when you talking about that.Okay according to the opinion of all of you, should I get back with him? I seriously can not live without him, but I'm also afraid that if he hurt my heart again. I desperately hope that he will be faithful waiting for me and no one else as my successor. I want he wait for me until I am ready, I'm jealous to see him with other person, please back off me. You know what?? how am I going to forget his when all that on facebook, twitter when I type 's' must be his name appearing first. I just now open twitter, I found he post pictures of his locker. He tell tomorrow everything will be changed, will be memorable. I saw the papers I had gave to him before and 'łeb łeb' wire that I asked irfan give to him, I do not imagine that he was able to save more of all that, there are also other notes taped to his locker but I can't be read as very vague. I hope he do not make the memories and not throw away all the things did I gave it tomorrow.I am willing to cancel my holiday with my aunt purely want to go JB to meet shahir. I'm willing to spend my money on clothes to go JB later just to look perfect in his eyes. Not enough more?My God, help me make this as true prayer for me to see shahir at the JB later. Had he appreciated me :') I missed the old shahir, which always make me laugh every day, who appreciate my feelings, take care of me, who love me and who never ignore me there when I'm sad and happy. Please back off me. I'm begging you very much :'(I always hide my tears in front of my friends when I say your name,but the pain in my heart is still the same. Althought I smile and seem carefree, there is no one who miss you more than me !!!
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